Saturday, 28 March 2009

one day in my life

What is it ? I don't know.Maybe chrysanthemum?Who can tell me?

This pink peach blossom produced by grafting.

' pink lady'^^


My delicious diet dishes.



It looks like a man who has brown mustache.

I felt regret that I can't make a fast reaction to the abrupt things. So I missed many many interesting scenes. Look at this photo, at that time two planes brushed past.But I shot only one.

cute biscuits
This week ,I didn't do any significative thing. I wasted time.I hate myself. Now,I lose my enthusiasm for life. :(
I get a little success, my weight alleviated about 7 pounds .

Monday, 23 March 2009

stranger

A terrible thing made me afraid . Yesterday mother went to my grandam's home. She heard a strange thing. Few days ago, in the afternoon,a stranger(a man) knocked at the door.The stranger said 'he is a skilled worker,and he would help them to check the telephone lines.' Grandsire didn't suspect, then opened the door.The man rushed into the room ,seemed like checking the line but in fact he did not. Even he visited every room . My grandam didn't allow him, but she couldn't stop him. The stranger asked many disrelated question to them and sold goods to them. At this moment ,they realized he may be a salesman ……“别给陌生人开门”Why not the same thing happened again and again ? The cheat is too sly,the elder can't deal with.十多年前,就在那个附近,曾有一对老夫妻给不认识的人开门,结果两人都被谋杀,案子一直没破。所以我害怕,很担心。so, don't open the door to the stranger.

Sunday, 22 March 2009

meat byebye!


Spring is here ,summer will coming soon. So I will wear T-shirt(short-sleeved ) and breeches. But I am worried about my figure ,because I 'm not only a little fat. :(

My waist ,my leg are thick .And it made me very sad.

The next two weeks, I will turn down any meat or meat products. I know it is a difficult determine. But I have no choice if I want to lose weight and keep slim !

Today is a good start , I do not eat meat , even my favourite gilled duck.^_^

Thursday, 19 March 2009

strange photo 2009-03-20 (ITS DATE IS WRONG)

My teacher asked us to take photos as homework . She wanted me use special ways about photo. So some of them aren't normal. Yesterday I got over 200 pictures!!
Look,the girl's hair , it's funny.

I stood at the top of the tallest building in nanjing.(not very clear)
Only the central part is clear, because the depth of field is small.

The car runs too fast,using time-lapse photography can make the car look like a light ray.

My school is near the river. Osier
pathway

Clivia(君子兰)

Cat-tail 猫柳

Monday, 16 March 2009

Prison Break

Have you ever heard of “Prison Break” ? — Michael Scofield is a construction engineer. His brother is soon to be sentenced to death for murder. But Michael is sure that his brother is innocent. To save his brother, Michael robs a bank. As a result, he is imprisoned in the Fox River State Prison, where his brother has been imprisoned. Michael’s plan is to help his brother to escape from the prison.
This TV play is one of my favourite America plays.If you are free ,try watching this TV show ;-)

Saturday, 14 March 2009

mask

So tired, and cannot fall asleep. I was very confused and afraid. My life is the inverse of order.一切都是反向的,我无法拥有规律的生活。
一切都变的很消极,腐烂的身躯再也包裹不住小心掩饰的欲望和野心,全部在这一刻爆发出来,而已扭曲的灵魂承受不住,在瞬间瓦解。赐予我新生吧,现在的一切都腻透了,让我窒息。虽然每一天都是新的,但我却被罪恶的过去束缚了手脚,不能解脱,不能迎接。
难以释怀,我也不知道是被怎样的问题所困绕,说不清、道不明,就是很累、脑子很痛,精神在崩溃,快要精神病了。
每天都在胡思乱想,特别是在夜间,越想越痛,更无法入睡。白天看到同学老师,竟会觉得陌生、觉得恐惧、觉得讨厌。而自己,更是恶心。
很想做一个好人,因为是完美主义者,希望每一个人都爱我,也希望真心对待你们。但我发现,我不是真正的好人,可你们更奇怪。我用真心对待你们的时候,你若无其事,变的冷淡;而我明显不想跟你罗嗦,随便敷衍你的时候,你却说我真是好人,我太爱你了……你就这么不了解我吗,因为我学会掩饰,不再喜怒形于色,你看不穿吗?装什么装,是懒得发火吗?
是没必要捅破最后一层纸,友谊不纯洁,动机是我们互相帮助、互相利用。(不是非常准确……但朋友让你开心了,你和他也都算收获了开心)
其实这就是规则,否则一方就会吃亏,除非他心甘情愿。但这不可能,俗语:吃亏是福。为小事吃点亏,人家会说你是好人、老实人,今后有什么就会想到你。许多人就这样做了。这种爱吃亏的人是真精啊,除了被识破。处处甘拜下风,小事上都承让了,表面上还喜滋滋的,其实这心理啊,都惦记着呢。当然,这话过了,不是刻意要惦记,而是不自觉的非主动的。因为心理会感到不舒服,所以自然就记下了。
许多年没有听到别人对我准确的评判了,当然是因为我的朋友大多都是被迫听我韶的,有人当然了解我,只是他们对我太好,怕伤害我,所以不说。有人是因为我从不表露内心所以他们根本不知道我是怎样。那天也是巧合,不经意的说了一些烦恼,提到感情的事、我听见了振聋发聩的评价“你是一个……的人”好准、好直接。
以前我很好,后来越来越觉得做足表面工夫也行,哈哈,就是装B,但当时情急之下就会失手,有时会暴露本质,面目狰狞。再后来感觉一切都看开了,感觉任何都不是非要得到的,所以许多事都淡然。但当积蓄在心中已久的潜意识里拯救我的力量猛的冲破我越来越变坚硬的虚伪的外壳时,我发觉很多事我是看中的、其实是很在意的,还是有自我的。压在体内的毒液喷薄而出,我被强大的力击倒,非常虚弱。当然能否活下来,就要看新肉能否长出,能否度过安全期了,目前感觉良好……
不会再做僵尸,不会再感觉是为你们而活着的,这种消极随意的想法。不再过分依赖,好好规划,重新开始,为一生中剩下的可贵的命而活。我将抛弃曾有过的支配和控制欲,真心的对待你们(每个人);我不满的时候,我会合理的表达,不会闷在心理;不会再说三倒四,不会循循善诱教导朋友,只会尊重、或是一些帮助。我知道,也告诉你,别人终究是靠不住的,因为无法永远依赖,如果想得到更多,对自己做要求就行了。自己做好了,得多了,得分享。

Monday, 9 March 2009

mama'birthday

Today is mother's birthday. Afterclass I went to a bakery to buy a cake. The bakery's name is Fanos.(对不起,我想用英语继续的,但水平不够……)我选择了一款叫草莓乳酪的,销售小姐说要现做,二十分钟就可以了,所以我就等了一下。与现在许多的面包店一样,它也有可视化的操作间,站在外面可以直接观看糕点师傅制作点心的全过程。而制作蛋糕与烤面包又分成两处。起先我坐在椅子上,注视着里面,一共有5人在做糕点。四男一女,切sukiyaki(里面是面包不是米饭)的人手法娴熟,而且很注意方法,他将一个长约10公分的寿司卷先一切为二,然后再改斜刀,切的小巧精致,二十多分钟,他只做这一样工作,却从头至尾都一丝不苟,有时为了让表面好看些,他还会修修边。这就很不同与Breadtalk里的,随意的给面包抹上酱的“机器手”。还有一位戴眼睛的师傅,一直躬着身子划面皮,似乎在制作一件艺术品……没有互相的交接,个人沉浸在自己的面包世界中,专业的、执卓地,用心赋予给面包小小的生命,这一幕瞬间在我的视线里定格,感动异常……
现在的生活已经不允许我们放慢节奏,就象餐馆里的忙乱异常的厨房,一切都是一个接着一个,厨师没有思考的时间。今天,在小小的面包房里,我看见一群出色的糕点师傅,也看见了他们用心的过程,看见了出色的作品。
我向往这样的职业。

Thursday, 5 March 2009

学雷锋

今天是3月5日,学雷锋纪念日,我想起了以前的一句口号“向雷锋同志学习”说给同学听,他们要么笑笑,要么无语。看来是把他当笑话了……有俗语也说,“雷锋三月里来,四月里走”大概也是暗讽,以前大搞特搞的形式主义吧……哎,学习雷锋,是学他的乐于助人,默默奉献,这种品质如此崇高,庄重,为什么现在提到他,我们反而哈哈大小呢?也许不以为然的是这些“这个日那个日”吧。
人们若是能在日常生活中,把这样的美好的行为,都当成理所当然的举动,那中国又要前进一大步了。那时,人们根本不需要“这个日那个日”来提醒。
不过,看来这是不可能的。


《见与不见》 仓央嘉措活佛

你见,或者不见我
我就在那里
不悲不喜

你念,或者不念我
情就在那里
不来不去

你爱,或者不爱我
爱就在那里
不增不减

你跟,或者不跟我
我的手就在你手里
不舍不弃
来我的怀里
或者
让我住进你的心里

默然 相爱
寂静 欢喜

Wednesday, 4 March 2009

my new friend


Yesterday , I found a blog called 'from Osaka(来自大坂) '. The host is a japanese.Her name is nonchan.(比我大十岁).I was very excited,because it was the first time that I told with the person from another country. Due to the Internet ,the world is real become a village. I profoundly understood this sentence.She seemed to at my side.

好希望可以和她交谈,我对她太好奇了,不过,就先从她的文字开始好了……
welcome to my country.

Sunday, 1 March 2009

奇怪的广告 小谈电影

真是怪事,不知我违反了什么规定,我的ID 被禁止了,google adsence是个费神的项目,我不会再上当了。

第一篇文章是我的一篇作业,自己是很喜欢看这种风格的电影 ,很朴实,对于完全意义上的动作片,不怎么欣赏,至于鬼片,伦理片就更不敢恭维了。对于电影,我比较倾向于西方,先不论它是否带来了思想或意识形态的渗透,单就情感的表达,叙事的角度,拍摄的方式,剪辑手法等来看,更为成熟,不是就形式而形式,也不会单纯为满足观众的欲望而只关注一些方面(绝大多数),该传达的、想要表达的思想,它一样会很到位,不会空洞,就这来说,《满城尽带黄金甲》就不行,我甚至觉得,张的很多片子都存在这样的问题。许多中国的大导演也有,就是内容不充实,就是表面的花花绿绿,没有内涵,把观众当傻子、笨蛋,一笑就忘了。

其实,很多优秀的作品都取材于生活中发生的事,甚至是一件小事,却一样拍的精彩,让人回味,比如《巴黎一夜》、《网络情缘》、《我们俩》,平常的生活也会让人感动,这是来自内心的共鸣。中国的大导演们取材于日常生活的不多,老是喜欢拿过去拿古人、拿极端说事,(冯小刚好一些)一方面也许是观众的口味问题,另一方面,恐怕就是对我们生活中的乐趣没自信了吧。